I've been thinking
I keep asking myself, "Was I put on this earth for any reason?"
Or, "Am I just sent here to be called 'different'?"
Or maybe the most important question I'd ask myself;
"Am I normal?"

I've been thinking
Sure, there are other people who are like me
Who are better or worse.
Somehow, I feel that I'm the only one
Who is more different and odd than people think.

I've been thinking
After all those times I've been made fun of
Stabbed in the back,
Treated like an idiot,
And left behind like a piece of trash.

I've been thinking
Let's call this 'contemplating', shall we?
A word describing deeply in thought.
That's what I do on a daily basis.
It's not such a bad thing, is it?

I've been thinking
Either I should accept the problem I'm facing
Or I should continue trying to find myself.
Yeah. I'll probably accept it.
It's the least I could do.

I've been thinking
You know what? I used the word 'thinking' enough.
Instead I'll use 'contemplating'.
It sounds better and specific.
I'll have to use it more often.

I've been contemplating
I've faced many issues in my life,
But managed to keep going.
There is a long path that I'll have to take,
But I have faith in myself. I think I can do it.

I've been contemplating
On the last verse of this poem I wrote.
It doesn't rhyme, it's not even a song.
I just wrote it out of what I think.
Contemplating's my thing. Don't judge.